A month in...

I'm a month into my return to Weight Watchers, and I'm down 12 pounds!

But let me tell you, I'm finding it tough to do Weight Watchers and school. The old law school maxim says they scare you to death the first year, work you to death the second year, and bore you to death your last year. So far, this seems true. My second year has kept me insanely busy. Next week will be the halfway point in the semester- time is certainly flying! My goal for this week is to start my Wealth Transfers outline and to start reading my research for my Gender paper.

As far as my diet goes, I've been off-track the past three days. Chris and I went to a Pirates game on Friday, and I ate the whole time, lol. I'm PMSing like crazy, and being quite nasty to him... and well, the only way that turns off is if I eat what I want. I'm planning on going to spinning at least three times this week, so hopefully it'll counteract my unhealthy eating. I find it much easier to stay on track through the week.

I'm proud that I made it to spinning Saturday morning. I know that I tend to harp on about spinning, but it's the first workout I've found that I just enjoy. Fat or skinny, on the wagon or off, I just enjoy spinning. It's not my dark room closed door spin class I had in Lexington, but the big airy open door policy here is growing on me.

I've been reading the book Anne (Happy Fun Pants) suggested to me in her comment on my last post... I'm finding it interesting, and will talk about it in posts to come.

For those of you reading and on your own weight-loss/health journeys, keep up the good work!

And so it starts all over again...

Everything I'm writing keeps coming out negative.

Here's the situation:
1- I went back to WW. I weighed in at 251 pounds, and lost 10 pounds in the first week.

2- I went to the doctor this summer to get a checkup. My blood pressure is high. The first thing the PA told me was "we don't give out diet pills here", and later said, well, have you ever tried a food journal? Weight watchers? Calorie counting? (Well duh.)

3- I feel like I'm a failure (at weight loss).

On the other hand...
1- I'm enjoying my classes this semester. 2L is much better than the year of being a scared 1L.

2- My boyfriend is amazing. He loves me for who I am. He reaffirms how pretty I am and how much he loves my body (as is) on a daily basis. We take care of each other and do what we can for each other.

3- There's a hint of fall in the air, and fall's my favorite season. I'm snuggled with Toby cat. I'm done with today's HW and I'm getting ready to go to the gym... Life isn't so bad.


I just feel like I'm not appreciating the good life I have because I'm so hung up on insubstantial issues. And I can't figure out how to get to that happy place even though it probably looks like I'm there: